If someone would ask a year ago, how would my year look like, I'd say that I dedicated it to fulfillment - the feeling of become someone better. I would do that by raising my self-esteem, developing my competence as a future psychologist, finding someone to love and traveling as much as possible, to feel happiness. I think I got there.
A year ago I did not think I will think high of myself. I've been experiencing anxiety and panic attacks because of an assault I was a victim of in May of 2013, a near-death situation that landed me in a hospital. I felt weak. I was not confident at all about anything that I want to do about myself. I didn't really know where I want to go with my life. Today, I know what I can and even more importantly - what I cannot do. And this gives me great confidence.
A year ago I did not think that I will find love. That such a mess of a person as myself, going through panic attacks, overweight, without a job, without a dream for the future... deserves love. That there is nothing I can give to someone I would treasure. But I did find love. Twice at that. And even though I am not with any of those woman, I found out that I can be an important part of someone's life. That I matter.
A year ago I did not think I will be spending my New Year in Spain, after traveling to Spain before that, too. Also to go to Sweden, Denmark, Andorra and island of Tenerife. Hell, I thought that I would be grounded once more in Poland.
A year ago I did not think I will be happy. And today I am not only happy. I am filled with joy that comes from being grateful to the little gifts of everyday life, from being surrounded by people that are important to me and from having hope for a better future.
My last year I called Year of Fulfillment. Let's make this one Year of Recognition. I want to share what I learned about happiness during the course of my life with every person that wants to hear it. Be that because we just met or because they need a hand to get back on their feet.
I believe we do not pay too much attention to our inner merriness, the one that comes from within. From the pure satisfation of being alive, . From being able to say that we have people that love us and that we love back. And from knowing how much change we can bring to ourselves by ourselves, if we only give it a chance. The bliss of being able to dream and to have the strength to get to them.
We are born with a right to achieve whatever we want. Execute your right, dear Readers. Be happy in 2015.
And listen to this, because it's just crazy. Headphone users, sorry in advance ;).
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